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Post by Kristopher Roberts on Sept 18, 2010 22:43:08 GMT -5
A sigh escaped Kristopher lips as he peered into one of the many bathroom mirrors. The sound of showers raged in the bathroom as many other slaves had decided to go into the bathrooms at the same time as Kristopher. He wasn't really concerned about it to be honest, he had his shower a while back and his hair was already dry and springing into life. The boy had to pull it back into a half ponytail to keep it out of his eyes.
Dressed in his normal attire, the boy pulled at his lower eye lid and stared at it in the mirror. The cut below his eye looked like it was healing well, but it hurt a lot. His eye wasn't as red looking either after being poked at by Kazn not that long ago. Did help that he had some light bruising as well. Stupid boogie.
"God, couldn't he just be a bit more gentle with my head. Man, this suck ass." he muttered to himself as he examined the side of his head, pulling the curls back out of the way to see how much brusing he had from being a lab rat. The mirror started to fog up, annoyed the blond leaned in closer and rubbed the dew from the reflective surface, only to practically jump out of his skin as he noticed someone was looking at him from behind, standing there. Letting out a startled cry, Kristopher replaced the cotton eye patch over the abused eye and turned on his heels to look at Augusta with a startled expression.
His lower back leaned into the skin as his hands gripped the porcelain. "Holy hell, you scared the shit out of me!" Bringing a hand to his mouth he coughed into it twice. Normal for the blond at this time of the year.
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Post by Augusta Davingoun on Sept 18, 2010 23:12:19 GMT -5
"God, couldn't he just be a bit more gentle with my head. Man, this suck ass."
Augusta hadn't been seen around much. At least by Kris, and whenever the blond was in the same room as Augy, the dark-haired boy often fled. They had barely talked since... that night. Mostly because Augy was more ashamed then ever. Not only did he cheat, but he also had his little run-in with Jouhnin. Augusta was going to go take a bath but when he walked into the room the place was loud and crowded. And Augy didn't like small spaces so he just stopped and looked around. His shirt was over his shoulder as well as a towel. He glanced over at the sound of a familiar voice.
damn
Augusta walked over slowly, he tired to keep his gaze down but ended up looking up. The scars from long ago vivid on his skin. And the hickeys and cuts and bruises from Jouhnin were even more obvious to see. He had one hand in his jeans pocket and the other holding his shirt and towel. He watched Kris for a moment before the blond finally noticed.
"Holy hell, you scared the shit out of me!"
Again the dark-haired mans head moved down, his gaze falling to the floor and his bare feet. " Yeah... Sorry..." he said softly. He sighed and looked over at the bathes and then shifted a bit. This was awkward and kinda unpleasant. He felt like 100 tons was on his shoulders and he starting to feel a bit sick and light-headed. It didn't seem like the Frenchman was going to last very long.
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Post by Kristopher Roberts on Sept 18, 2010 23:21:33 GMT -5
The slave looked at Augusta for a moment but did not move from his place against the sink. The atmsophere was getting thick with a whole new kind of feel. "It's alright, I just wished you let me know you where staring." He chuckled softly and gave his lover a small smile. It had been a long time since he had even seen his Augusta. For a while, he wondered if Augusta even loved him still seeing as all he would do is hide from him or avoid him all together.
He supposed its what he deserved for what he had done. The blond lowered his gaze and rubbed the side of his head, "Um, sorry if I'm in the way, here." It was the only thing he could think of in his awkward moment, he pulled away from the sink and gave Augusta room. "I'm sure you might want it, before the other guys get out of their showers you know. It's Tuesday, its always crowded in here then...and the like."
God, it was so odd talking to him when it really shouldn't be. There was so much he wanted to talk about, apologize for and overall, just feel loved. But he didn't want to burden him or make him feel any worse then he looked. The blond fiddled with his watch then.
"Um, Augusta..." he said slowly, "Do you...um..." at that moment a shower opened up, saving Kristopher from asking a question he wanted too but at the same time didn't. For he was afraid if he asked Augusta if he still loved him that he might hear no. So instead he let out a happy sound. "Hey, showers open if you do wanna take one, now's the time."
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Post by Augusta Davingoun on Sept 19, 2010 0:09:02 GMT -5
"It's alright, I just wished you let me know you where staring."
The air in the room could be cut with a knife. It was thick and heavy and mostly silent. Augusta just nodded a little bit in response. Kris thought that Augy didn't love him anymore, but that wasn't true. Augy was scared to death, he thought Kris would stop loving him if Kris found out about him and Aione. It was really fear for nothing. But Augusta didn't think Kris would ever be able to forgive him, let alone Augy forgive himself. The dark-haired man sighed and looked over when Kristopher moved out of the way. Augy waved a hand slightly. " Naw... I didn't..." he looked everywhere but at Kris, " I just came to take a shower or... yeah... something..."
Awkward Llama.
"Hey, showers open if you do wanna take one, now's the time."
Augy finally had his gaze fall onto Kristopher. He looked back behind him at the shower and then back at Kris. He glanced a couple more times before shifting again. " What were you gonna ask?" he said softly, a hint of fear in his voice. " You were gonna say something else, right?" The huge rock in his gut grew larger and heavier with the more words he said. He hated hiding things from Kristopher. It made not only his heart ache, but his mind as well. He couldn't think he could take it anymore.
Not for much longer.
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Post by Kristopher Roberts on Sept 19, 2010 0:18:04 GMT -5
" What were you gonna ask? You were gonna say something else, right?"
Kristopher looked at his love for a moment, then his gaze fell to the ground. How could he ask Augusta such a question, about if he still wanted him. He didn't think he could handle the answer, because he feared it would be a no. So, he tried to avoid it for a moment until he found the words. Smiling softly, he approached Augusta and took him by the shoulders.
"We'll talk as you shower, hows that cause you smell like a man." He teased and moved towards the shower and shoved Augusta right into it, closed the curtain and leaned against the side of it. The younger male didn't know what to say to Augusta, he really didn't. Licking his lips, he slid down the wall of the shower and sat right on his ass as a few men walked by, they never noticed him.
"It's nothing really." he said slowly. Bringing his legs up to his chest he rested his arms upon his boney knees and leaned forward, staring straight ahead. It would be silent for a long moment before Kris spoke again.
"Say Augusta, do you love me?" Still.
He wanted to know, Augusta hadn't told him he loved him in such a long time that it kinda hurt when he realized it.
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Post by Augusta Davingoun on Sept 19, 2010 0:35:50 GMT -5
"We'll talk as you shower, hows that cause you smell like a man."
Augusta looked at Kris with a confused look as he was pushed backward and into the shower. He bumped into the wall a bit and hit his head. He rubbed the back of his head as Kris closed the curtain. But he obeyed and tossed his shirt and towel over the top of the shower, hitting the ground next to the blond. He then removed the rest of his clothing as Kris sat on the floor. He tossed his garments the same way as he did his towel.
"It's nothing really."
Augusta turned on the shower, but he could still hear Krissy clearly from inside the shower. He took off his glasses as he leaned up against the shower wall and let the water run over his face. He ran a hand through his hair and washed some of the blood and dirt out. He closed his eyes and let out a deep sigh. The hot water washed away the blood off his skin,washed away the monster. But didn't wash away the cheater and liar.
"Say Augusta, do you love me?"
Augusta's heart stopped for a second and the air inside his lungs got caught. When he returned to breathing he coughed loudly and then pulled the curtain back just a touch and stuck his head out. He had a very shocked look on his face, he looked like those words were sin. " OF COURSE I DO!!!" he said very loudly. He coughed again and looked away and closed the curtain. " IO love you more then anything in the world. " Augusta sighed softly and looked over at the curtain. He glanced back and forth a few times before getting a very horrid idea.
He opened the curtain just a touch, looked around to see if anyone was looking, nobody was, and then grabbed the blond. He lifted the smaller and less heavy boy to his feet. Then dragged his lover into the shower into a warm embrace. Not to mention that the shower was still running. " I love you Kristopher... and I should be on my knees begging..." speaking of that he did slid down onto his knees and sat there. " I'm a liar... and I don't deserve you... I... I'm not good enough for you... " he said and hugged the blonds knees and buried his face into the blonds tummy.
" I'm so sorry Kris..."
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Post by Kristopher Roberts on Sept 19, 2010 0:45:22 GMT -5
The curtain opened but Kristopher didn't look up at all. " OF COURSE I DO!!!" The blond toyed with the discarded clothing for a moment, a small smile touching his face. He was terrified that he was going to be tossed away but it seemed that would not be the case. "That's good then..." He said softly, more then happy to know he was still wanted. "I was starting to worry, that you...didn't want me anymore...cause I know you never did like the idea of marriage and I'm not going to hold you to it...but you haven't told me you loved me in such a long time...I was starting to worry..."
About that time the curtain opened again and before he knew it, he was brought to his feet and pulled into the shower with a surprised cry. He was even more surprised as he was getting hit with water and that Augusta was holding his knees, his face in his stomach.
Kristopher wasn't sure what to do for a moment, but instantly knew where this was going. So he let out a small sigh and put his arms around Augusta's head, hugging him. "Get off the floor, you don't need to do that. There's no reason for to say such things to me."
He paused for a moment, "I've already forgiven you, for everything. So don't worry about it." His thin hand went through the dark locks of his lover. Kristopher's face reflected understanding but sadness as well. He knew this was going towards Aione and what he had seen, but Augusta was innocent, he was able to stop himself, unlike himself. He gave himself to Corvus, drunk or not, he knew what he was doing.
"You make me feel like such a villain."
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Post by Augusta Davingoun on Sept 19, 2010 0:53:43 GMT -5
"Get off the floor, you don't need to do that. There's no reason for to say such things to me."
Augusta felt Kris's arms and it made him feel a bit better. He blinked for a second before he began to speak again. " But I did such a horrible thing and I've been---"
"I've already forgiven you, for everything. So don't worry about it."
Augusta stopped in mid sentence. He turned his head and looked up at Kris... He wasn't wearing his glasses so it wasn't like he could see the blond anyways. " W--what? You... " he suddenly realized what Kristopher was saying. Oh god, now he felt even worse. He let his head go down to the floor as he pulled away from Kristopher and put his head in his hands. He tried not to cry but he couldn't help it, it was in his nature. He felt even worse knowing that Kris knew about what he had done, and probably saw or heard it. How could he have put Kris through something like that?!
"You make me feel like such a villain."
" But you're not!" Augy said through tears, " I cheated!!! How can you forgive me for something like that?!" he said and then returned to burying his face into his hands. His slightly shaggy black hair hiding the rest of his face. " I'm a horrible person..."
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Post by Kristopher Roberts on Sept 19, 2010 1:02:00 GMT -5
It seemed as if Augusta had figured out the meaning of Kristopher's words and he felt suddenly horrible to even had said it. He lowered his gaze away from his love that just pulled away. Kristopher didn't even try to go near him, so he stood there in the shower, becoming wet once again with the warm waters that had nothing to wash away. For like Augusta, the waters could not rinse sin away.
"Yeah, I've know for a while. I walked in on you and Aione, but I didn't want you to know. I didn't want you to suffer with you having the knowledge of me knowing because I knew it would tear you appart." He spoke softly, pushing the wet hair from his face, he held it back with one hand. A soft laugh escaped his lips once it was pointed out that Kris was not a villain. How wrong he was...how every wrong of Augusta.
"You didn't cheat, you kissed a girl. It's nothing, you kept your pants on, you didn't give in. You didn't take her or even try too. So thus, you didn't cheat. I had made you unhappy and so its only natural something like that happened, yet you kept yourself together, drunk or not." The blond paused, his eyes staring down.
"I on the other hand...am the horrible person. I'm not as strong as you are, Augusta." He laughed again. "Please, don't cry anymore. It hurts me to see you cry like a woman."
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Post by Augusta Davingoun on Sept 19, 2010 1:11:26 GMT -5
"Yeah, I've know for a while. I walked in on you and Aione, but I didn't want you to know. I didn't want you to suffer with you having the knowledge of me knowing because I knew it would tear you apart."
How very right Kristopher was, how very right. Augusta felt so ashamed now, knowing that Kris had seen them, it was a horrible thought. That Kris watched as Augy touched somebody else. Augy didn't currently understand how that felt. He couldn't even imagine.
"You didn't cheat, you kissed a girl. It's nothing, you kept your pants on, you didn't give in. You didn't take her or even try too. So thus, you didn't cheat. I had made you unhappy and so its only natural something like that happened, yet you kept yourself together, drunk or not."
Augusta sobbed into his hands, his only savings grace being that the shower was loud enough to stop others from hearing their conversation. He looked up at Kristopher with a look that would break anyone's heart in two. " B--but... I... " he looked down again, " But my intention was to... I would have... But.. I don't know what happened... I just broke down... I can't stay angry at you for very long anyway..." he said softly and sniffled a bit.
"I on the other hand...am the horrible person. I'm not as strong as you are, Augusta. Please, don't cry anymore. It hurts me to see you cry like a woman."
Augusta was a bit scared by Kristopher's laughing and the words that came from the blond. He looked at Kristopher with a confused look. But Augy wasn't stupid. He was far from it. His face then turned a bit more suspicious. " K--Kris... what do you mean by that? " he was starting to worry. " Kristopher... p--please... wh--what are you talking about? " he pulled himself to his feet, staying a tiny bit away from his lover. " You're scaring me Kris..."
The Frenchman didn't want to believe what his gut was telling him...
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Post by Kristopher Roberts on Sept 19, 2010 1:20:53 GMT -5
The blond pushed his hair behind his ears and stood very still, he didn't move towards Augusta as a sad smile came across his features. He didn't even look at him, he couldn't anyways, he was ashamed much like Augusta was at this moment. "Doesn't matter what your intentions where, you didn't go through with it. Either cause I stepped in the room or because you realized it was wrong and stopped it yourself. Either way, it doesn't matter."
The blond chewed on his lips for a moment and shook his head with a small huff, "I don't mean to scare you. It's just I find it sickly funny really. You almost cheated and me, well," He shrugged his thing shoulders as Augusta backed away. "I'm no saint, Love. I gave in to the devil himself. I played the cheating game right along with you. I was upset with you after we fought and I got drunk, but that isn't an excuse and I know it. I still had some common sense even though it was barely there. I could of said no, but I didn't."
His hands kept moving though his hair as he shifted his weight to the right. He looked up at Augusta then. "I spent the night with Corvus." In fact, he had slept with the man because he promised not to tell Augusta that he was drinking and to keep it, he kissed him which lead to something much more.
"Funny how a simple kiss puts you. It's like I said, I'm a villain. You have no reason to cry, you have more reason to be angry." The blond was ashamed of himself and hated what he did even though he enjoyed the drunken night with his elven year crush. He wouldn't be surprised if Augusta cried right here some more and smacked him, or even left him for it seeing as Augusta always said he should go to Corvus.
"Cause I even liked it..."
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Post by Augusta Davingoun on Sept 19, 2010 1:36:21 GMT -5
"I don't mean to scare you. It's just I find it sickly funny really. You almost cheated and me, well,"
Augusta prayed that Kristopher wouldn't say what he thought he was going to say. He asked whoever was listening to just shut the blond up right then. But in reality his wishes were not granted. And he heard what he never thought he would ever hear. At least not from Kris.
"I'm no saint, Love. I gave in to the devil himself. I played the cheating game right along with you. I was upset with you after we fought and I got drunk, but that isn't an excuse and I know it. I still had some common sense even though it was barely there. I could of said no, but I didn't."
Augusta looked at Kris, his face slowly getting more and more sad. He wanted to yell, scream, tell Kristopher to shut his pie-hole. He wanted to be it was like he was frozen in concrete.
"I spent the night with Corvus, I could of said no, but I didn't. Funny how a simple kiss puts you. It's like I said, I'm a villain. You have no reason to cry, you have more reason to be angry."
As soon as Corvus's name was said, Augusta felt tears run down his face. Unlike Kris, Augy was out of the way of the water. So the tears were obvious. His face looked like somebody had killed his dog. It was beyond sadness, beyond heartbreak. He couldn't breathe, his lungs just wouldn't support the air. He could feel his heart crack, this was horrible... Absolutely horrid.
"Cause I even liked it..."
Augusta shook his head and closed his eyes, " no... no, please don't say that..." he begged. Augy looked up at Kris with red eyes from crying before he felt his knees give out on him. He leaned up against the nearest wall and slid down it. He sat on the ground for a second before he ran his hands through his hair. " I... I don't think I can... I can't handle a--anymore of this Kris! I've a--always been i--insecure... and... t--then... I knew I--I was never g--good enough... I'm s--sorry... "
" I--I was j--just a w--waste of your t--time right?!" he said with a hint of anger in his voice. " I...I guess I'd rather... you tell me then h--hide it... a--and you wanted t--to get married... " Augusta then looked up, his black eyes staring right at Kristopher. His face full of anger and sadness, but mostly the look that a person gave you when you took away the most important thing in their life.
" D--did you ever r--really love m--me?"
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Post by Kristopher Roberts on Sept 19, 2010 1:49:56 GMT -5
Kristopher didn't even look at Augusta, no he kept his gaze lowered, he couldn't face Augusta right now. " no... no, please don't say that... I... I don't think I can... I can't handle a--anymore of this Kris! I've a--always been i--insecure... and... t--then... I knew I--I was never g--good enough... I'm s--sorry... I--I was j--just a w--waste of your t--time right?!I...I guess I'd rather... you tell me then h--hide it... a--and you wanted t--to get married... D--did you ever r--really love m--me?" [/i]
The blond kept moving his hair more so out of habit then the water falling on him. He had hurt him and he knew it, but he wasn't going to lie to Augusta about it, it wouldn't be fair too. Not at all, Kristopher felt horrible and sick to his stomach. He hated seeing Augusta cry, he couldn't handle it...he never could because he never was good with emotions.
"I know, I didn't plan on it happening. I never thought I would do it but I couldn't stop myself. I just wanted to be truthful with you like you where to me. It hurts, I know." He spoke slowly with a low voice as he moved out of the water and leaned against the shower wall.
"I made everything worse, if you don't want me anymore. I can fully understand that...and accept it." He sighed then, "It's not your fault, Augusta. You are good enough, you always had been. You're not a waste of time, I am. I've never been a real good partner for you..."
God, he didn't want his frist meeting with Augusta to be like this, he planned on taking the cheating secert to the grave with him but Augusta had made him feel like he had to tell him. He needed to get off his chest, it had been eatting him alive. "I didn't want to tell you...I knew it would do this to you..."
He looked at the tearful boy before him, he looked so pitiful. "I've always loved you just as you loved me. We just made mistakes...and maybe marriage isn't for us afterall. But I still love you." Even if he hated Kristopher now, Kris would still love him. He always would. Pained, Kristopher looked away once more and did not approach his fiance. He couldn't not with all the shame he felt.
"I'm sorry that it happened...I rather you just hit me then cry, it's easier to deal with."
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Post by Augusta Davingoun on Sept 19, 2010 2:03:58 GMT -5
"I know, I didn't plan on it happening. I never thought I would do it but I couldn't stop myself. I just wanted to be truthful with you like you where to me. It hurts, I know."
Augusta tried to stop crying, he wiped his eyes multiple times, he sniffed and tried to regain his composure only to loose it again and again. He didn't think his poor heart could handle much more. He looked down and held his knees to his chest. He listened to Kris but sometimes he didn't want to hear it. He really just wanted to crawl under a rock and die now.
"I made everything worse, if you don't want me anymore. I can fully understand that...and accept it. It's not your fault, Augusta. You are good enough, you always had been. You're not a waste of time, I am. I've never been a real good partner for you..."
" Shut your mouth... I--I always want you... B--but... How am I supposed to know y--you want me?" The dark-haired man looked up then, he was starting to regain what little sanity he had left. " I've always wanted you... why d--do you think I k--keep dragging m--my sorry self back t--to you when w--we have f--fights? I...I n--never wanted to l--loose you..."
"I didn't want to tell you...I knew it would do this to you..."
Augusta looked down at the floor and ran a hand through his dark hair. " I--if you had hidden it I would h--have just have been m--more upset..." he said softly and looked away. He sighed softly and tried to hold it together.
"I'm sorry that it happened...I rather you just hit me then cry, it's easier to deal with."
Augusta looked over with a slightly angry look. " Bastard... I'd never f--forgive myself i--if I hit you f--for something a--as dumb as t--this..." Augy leaned his head back and sighed again. " Dammit... I guess I'll never be good enough... I--I thought I was gonna be a--able to tell Corvus to fuck off... But I--I guess he's better then me after all..." He rolled his head over to the side, staring at the shower curtain.
" I--I really h--hate that guy..."
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Post by Kristopher Roberts on Sept 19, 2010 10:24:25 GMT -5
" Shut your mouth... I--I always want you... B--but... How am I supposed to know y--you want me?I've always wanted you... why d--do you think I k--keep dragging m--my sorry self back t--to you when w--we have f--fights? I...I n--never wanted to l--loose you..."[/i]
The blond sighed softly once again, "And I still stayed with you even though I saw you with Aione, so what does that say to you? I love you and always wanted you even though I know I don't show it very well sometimes." Of course the older boy made a good point, if he had hidden the event any more it would of been worse for the both of time.
" Bastard... I'd never f--forgive myself i--if I hit you f--for something a--as dumb as t--this...Dammit... I guess I'll never be good enough... I--I thought I was gonna be a--able to tell Corvus to fuck off... But I--I guess he's better then me after all...I--I really h--hate that guy..."
Kristopher pushed away from the wall and came down to sit beside Augusta. Leaning to the side, he rested his blond head against the others shoulder. "Don't say that, you'll always be good enough for me. I love you, it's why I stay by you even through the worst moments." Kristopher watched the water splash upon the pale tiles in the shower. What should he do now?
He was never good at this and never would be, "Don't be mad at him, it is only half his fault, the other is mine." A gentle hand came to rest on Augusta's arm.
A second later, Kristopher pulled away, not because he did not want to be near Augusta but because he was having one of his old coughing fits that always seemed to shake his whole being. When it was finished he kept his hand to his mouth, muttering. "I hate that, always at the wrong moment."
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