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Post by Jouhnin Takanami on Sept 19, 2010 16:36:06 GMT -5
Jouhnin saw Corvus's blush and smiled softly, but his smile faded as he realized that making Cor blush was useless. It wouldn't help the fact that he was still alone and Corvus loved somebody else. But as he fiddled with his kimono he felt a warm hand on his cold wrist. He snapped his head over to look at Cor, his black hair tossed to the side. He listened silently and watched as Corvus seemed to noit be able to find his words.
Jouhnin looked at Corvus with a questioning look. " Corvus... I know you're sorry..." he said softly and when Corvus pulled his hand away Jouhnin frowned. " You sound like a moron... If your going to say something just say it." The dark-haired boogie looked back over the the window before looking back at his ex-lover. He sighed softly, he wished that everything that had happened in the past was actually real... instead of a beautiful lie.
Jouhnin was silent for awhile before he took a step closer to Corvus, kinda keeping him near the wall. " Humor me Corvus... just this once..." he said and put his hand back on Corvus's face, trailing his fingers back, moving some bangs from the mans face. " Back then... did you even love me... just a little bit...?" he asked softly.
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Post by Corvus "Raven" Hunter on Sept 19, 2010 17:05:52 GMT -5
The look on Cor's face was a mix of embarrassment and irritation as he peeked out from under his hat again. "Sh-Shush, you." He hated being called a moron, even though it tended to happen quite often, it bugged him a lot more than usual when Jouhnin said it. Still, he was bad at glaring at Jou, so it looked more like a tougher version of a pout. Real threatening. He gave up on his glare after a second, finally feeling his face begin to cool...
Jou had him against the wall. Oh shit. Return of the red mask.
Corvus looked up (duh) at Jouhnin with wide, slightly confused eyes. His hand was on his face again, cold as they had been when they were together. Damn, was he beautiful. Wait, what am I thinking?! Cor shook his head slightly to clear his head, not even noticing how his hat slipped from him and landed sideways a few feet off. He was a little distracted right now.
"J-Jou..." ...how am I supposed to answer? Had it really been a fling all the way through? A way to kill time? That's what it had been to the foolish Cor of then...what was it now? Was it still a waste of his time?
Or not?
The younger male looked right into Jou's eyes. "...I...I did..."
...I think.
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Post by Jouhnin Takanami on Sept 19, 2010 17:28:48 GMT -5
Jouhnin watched with his jet black orbs, he analyzed the reactions, the motions, everything Corvus did but his own emotions clouded over that was right in front of the taller Boogies face. But his cold hand lingered on Corvus's cheek, Jou wanted to pull away but couldn't. There were many things that seperated the Takanamis from other Boogies, and even from each other.
Sure the whole Takanami Clan was oddly tall, but all of them, including Jou, were all abnormally beautiful. It wasn't like a 'cute' it was more angelic. They were like aliens, so damn attractive, like they were perfect in every way. It was creepy to any sane person. But what set Jou apart from the rest of his huge family would be his tempature. When one said Jouhnin's hand was cold, it literally was. Like there was no blood running through his viens. He hated winter for the one reason that he was allready cold and didn't need to be more so. But as he stod there, with Corvus in frotn of him, looking down on the younger Boogie he felt a smile cross his face. Not the insane one, the one that made most people cower in fear. But a smile that only Corvus and Jou's family would remember.
Jou's smiled was a soft one, barely there. But he let out a breath, one he didn't even know he was holding. " T--thank you Corvus..." he said and brought his hand back and away from Corvus. " That makes me feel better... At least I wasn't just some plaything..." he said and looked to the floor. His purple-black hair falling over his shoulders lightly. He kept his gaze on the floor for a long moment before looking up and over at the huge clock nearby. He shook his head.
" I--I really... I s--should be getting o--out of here..." he stuttered, he was losing his composure again. He was sad that Cor had said those words in the past tence. And he was about to break down. He couldn't handle it.
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Post by Corvus "Raven" Hunter on Sept 19, 2010 17:44:49 GMT -5
Cor had taken a lot of injuries in the past four thousand years. He'd been bumped and bruised by humans and Boogies alike, smacked into trees (Tristan) and walls (Jou), bitten by killed plants (most of the time his familiar)...but seeing that smile just killed him. Corvus had never expected to see that soft smile again. Not after all the crap he'd pulled. It was something he really, really didn't deserve. And the pain that was behind that smile only proceeded to twist the knife in his chest.
Snap.
As Jouhnin pulled away, the younger Boogie grabbed his wrist again, harder than before, and pulled it to his chest. When he spoke, his voice was both a whisper and a shout. Panic etched itself into his deep red eyes, and he held Jouhnin's cool hand in both of his, holding him tight like he would disappear if he loosened his grip. Corvus had acted like this before when he was younger, but on very rare occasion. And never around Kris.
Only when Jouhnin was concerned.
An auto-phobia attack. Just what I needed.
"Jouhnin, don't go! Please...! D-Don't leave me alone...!!"
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Post by Jouhnin Takanami on Sept 19, 2010 18:00:31 GMT -5
Jouhnin was trying to find a good reason to leave, to get out of this situation. He was saddened. But also kinda happy, he tried to dig into his brain for a good lie, a good excuse but nothing came. Nothing. His head was practically empty. The only thing that ran through his mind was how Corvus loved him... but only in the past. He sighed softly and took a step back.
But he was pulled two steps forward. Corvus had reached out and grabbed his wrist, he stumbled those two steps forward which out him close to Corvus. A little too close for comfort. He heard those words, and the look in his ex-lovers eyes and knew what was happening. He was having an attack, it was a little bit irritating that he was now stuck but something else hit him hard. Those words, the look. Jouhnin felt like he was needed. That Cor wanted him, at least for now.
Jouhnin sighed and ran his not captured hand through Corvus's hair. " What are you fretting about now?" he said, his voice a smooth. Jou had only delt with one of Corvus's auto-phobia once before. And it took quite a bit of time to get the younger boogie to calm down. So Jouhnin put on that smooth and soothing voice, masking his depression and unhappines for now.
" You'll be okay... I won't leave unless you want me too.. " I never want to leave you alone...
Jouhnin ran his hand through the shorter black locks and sighed softly. He wasn't expecting his day to turn into this. He hadn't planned it this way.
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Post by Corvus "Raven" Hunter on Sept 19, 2010 18:29:35 GMT -5
During an auto-phobia attack, for those of you who are not familiar, the attackee reverts into a somewhat childish manner, fears being alone, and tends to freak out if abandoned in this state. That was the definition for a human with auto-phobia...Boogies with it were no different. The biggest issue was that, mentally, they knew exactly what was going on. And couldn't stop it. Cor kept his scared eyes locked onto Jou as he spoke, stroking his hair.
It was comforting, just being around him, but it had been eleven years since his last attack. He had thought they were gone. So why did he suddenly revert?
"I...I just don't...want you to go..."
Is it because of Jouhnin...?
"Y-You swear...? Y-You promise...?" the younger, even more so now, Boogie whimpered softly and leaned into Jou's hand. It was cold, but comforting. He smiled despite his condition. "Cold hands, warm heart...it's true..." Corvus mumbled in his flawed state of mind before starting to release Jou's hand from his own. For a moment, it looked like it was just a small attack and now it was over.
Instead of coming back to normal, Corvus took another step forward, really more a jump, and wrapped his arms around the giant's waist.
"I'm glad...you won't leave me...Jouhnin-chan..."
Chan? Wow...it really has been eleven years...
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Post by Jouhnin Takanami on Sept 19, 2010 19:06:45 GMT -5
Jouhninb wasn't quite sure how to deal with this, so he just kept trying to calm the younger boogie down. He sighed softly and looked down at Corvus as he spoke, he was so much like a child, a veru cute child, but Jouhnin pushed those thoughts aside. He had to focus on keeping Cor from going bonkers. " I won't go unless you want me too..." he said softly.
The black-eyed boogie looked down on Corvus with a sort of motherly look. " Cross my heart and hope to die..." he reassured the younger. When Cor leaned into Jou's hand, the older boogie-man felt his face heat up just slightly. The words Corvus said echoed in his head. Cold hands, warm heart. Really? He sighed when Corvus started to realease his hand but then jumped onto him. Suffocating him in a warm embrace.
Jouhnin was surprised but happy, surprised at the sudden jump but happy he was being held. At least by Corvus, it was a sad thing because he knew that Corvus wouldn;t do such a thing unless he was having an attack. It just wasn't him. But Jou had to think... Why would he have an attack, and why now? It was a curious thought, he wanted to find out. But right now he had a childish Corvus to deal with.
Jouhnin-chan?? a chuckle " It's been a long time since anyone has reffered to me as 'chan.' Most call me Jouhnin-sama nowadays..." he said softly. " But you can be the exception..."
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Post by Corvus "Raven" Hunter on Sept 19, 2010 19:26:23 GMT -5
Childish or not, Corvus had to admit he didn't hate this. He'd missed being held and holding someone. Sure he'd been floating around Kris for the past months, but those weren't hugs. That was always 'skipping-a-few-steps-and-trying-to-get-in-the-boy's-pants'. Right now, however, Kris wasn't even on his mind. Neither was the hat, which sort of figment-ally represented Kristopher in a sense...and it still lay on the floor, out of sight and out of mind. Cor nuzzled against the beautiful Boogie, smiling softly at the comfort.
I missed him. So much.
A sound like a purr escaped his lips. "Jouhnin-chan...y'know...I always liked you. Really liked you. No matter what I say..." Oh great. I'm rambling. "...I always liked holding you, even if it's like holding a tree...you're so tall..." Cor looked up at Jouhnin, having to press against him with his chin as to not break the hug, "...but that's one of the things I like about you. You're special...not just because you're really, really pretty...which you are...but...because...I..."
...because I...?
Click.
Corvus blinked, red eyes suddenly clear and calm and without a stitch of fear. The daft smile on his face faded, and in a half of a second he'd turned red as his eyes. What a way to regain control, half-way through a...a...whatever the hell that just was. Could it be considered a confession? Wait, NO WAY! Huh?!
"I...I...um..." he didn't pull back, almost too nervous to do so, with a word he'd lost stuck in his windpipe.
Oh shit. What was I going to tell him...?
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Post by Jouhnin Takanami on Sept 19, 2010 19:53:53 GMT -5
Jouhnin tried not to pull away screaming as Corvus talked, saying that Corvus always liked him and that he was pretty and that he was like a big tree. It was all so sad but so wonderful. And Jouhnin couldn't handle the feelings that this was bringing with it. He sighed softly. " Thank you for the compliments." he replied but he suddenly looked down and saw that look that Corvus got when he was finally back to normal.
Those eyes were a weakness Jouhnin couldn't fight off. That look made his heart sink as Corvus started to stutter. He looked down at the younger and massivly shorter boogie. Then he couldn't hold it in any longer. He softly pushed the shorter boogie back against the wall, it was a gentle push though. And he leaned down to were his face was just inches from Corvus's. " I'm sorry Corvus... Just forgive me this once..." he said softly before kissing the yunger boogie. He was bent over so far he was to use the wall to support himself to he kept a hand on the wall next to Cor's head.
It felt like ages before Jouhnin pulled away. Jou's face was red, crazy fire-engine red. He put a hand over his face, maybe to hdie his embaressment. " I--I'm sorry I just..." Jouhnin stopped for a second before he suddenly felt something wamr run down his face. Tears. I'm crying?! He blinked and more tears streamed down his face.
" I--I'm s--sorry I s--shouldn't have d--done that... " the taller boogie said through tears. " Y--you love s--someone else a--and I... I... I just l--love you t--too much..." and then he bruied his face into his hands as he shook with sobs.
Now we know were Augy got his over-emotional tendencies.
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Post by Corvus "Raven" Hunter on Sept 20, 2010 18:22:43 GMT -5
The look on Cor's face was utterly priceless, to say the least. He wasn't one to blush, and when he did it wasn't ever this bad, but being this close to Jouhnin made him look like a fricken apple. And it didn't help when he a was pushed back against the wall with the angelic Boogie leaning a bit too close. The way Corvus presses back into the wall made him look like a trapped animal. "Wh-What do you--" he started before he was cut off...in the most unexpected of ways. He went from apple to tomato in point three seconds.
Despite the initial shock, there was a slight zap when Jou kissed him. A spark that really shouldn't be there, but it caused his 'this-is-bad' reflex to vanish, replaced with a shiver and, against his better interest again, he kissed Jouhnin back until he pulled away.
He saw the tears before the older Boogie even noticed them.
Not good.
"J-Jouhnin...please don't cry..." Corvus reached up to catch the much taller Boogie's arms, being too short to reach his wrists of his hands. The words he was saying sounded way too familiar. "Jouhnin-chan...I hate seeing you cry..." ...especially when it's my fault. He ran his hands as high as they could reach, barley touching Jou's wrists. Worried red eyes watched him carefully, and one might even say lovingly. But Corvus didn't know what to think right now...
...do I love him...? Or don't I?
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Post by Jouhnin Takanami on Sept 21, 2010 16:41:54 GMT -5
Jouhnin was feeling more and more like a human as of late. And it was all Corvus's fault, he felt like an idiot crying right now. Crying was for the weak, crying was for children and fools. But it seemed that Jouhnin was going to be a 'fool' as of late. He had already cried twice in the last two weeks, which for the infamously cruel and abusive Boogie was like, the end of the world. Jouhnin could hear Corvus telling him not to cry but it wasn't really until the younger Boogie touched his arms that he actually paid the man any attention.
Why am I crying!? This is stupid! I'm acting like a child! Why do I still care?! I should know better by now!
Jouhnin thought to himself, he wouldn't have thought those words if he remembered that Corvus would probably hear him. He lowered his hands and his hands slipped lifelessly into Corvus's. Jouhnin still looked beautiful even with his cheek tear-streaked. Jouhnin closed his eyes and turned his head away. He couldn't believe he was crying, this was stupid. He felt stupid. " I--I'm sorry..." Why was he apologizing!? " I--I... I j--just w--want thing I--I can't h--ha--have. And I--I'm not sure..." He sniffled pathetically, he took a step back, maybe trying to escape this whole situation but because his hands were trapped by Corvus's, it was impossible for him to leave. At least, his mind wouldn't let him.
" I--I just know h--how m--much more m--my heart can t--take!"
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Post by Corvus "Raven" Hunter on Sept 30, 2010 18:25:51 GMT -5
Corvus felt like he was trapped between a rock and a hard place. The rock was Jouhnin. The way he was crying, hear broken, apologizing for no good reason...it gave Cor the feeling like a tar-pit was swallowing his heart. He wanted to fix everything, maybe to try again. But there was Kris. He still had feelings for the blond. But he also had feelings for Jou. Which brought him back to the hard place; how the hell did he choose between the one he almost loved and the one who almost loved him?
If I was still young, would I have cared? He wants me. I would have just gone from that...
...how could I even think that?
When he was young, he was foolish and cold and manipulative. But he'd gotten close to Jouhnin. And it had been, back then, what he considered his biggest mistake. But had it really been a mistake? Had it all been just a game?
No.
With a stretch Cor managed to reach and catch the much taller Boogie's shoulders in his hands, clinging to the kimono to keep from losing his grip. Then, with a deep breath and a few reassurances, he pulled Jouhnin in while leaning up, crashing his lips to his for a second time. But this time he was the one instigating it. It definitely lasted longer than Jouhnin's kiss. And not as calm and gentle.
After that moment, Cor pulled back with a gentle grin. A mix of his childish, foolish smile and the more mature look he'd gained over eleven years. "Jouhnin, you have no reason to apologize." Again he stretched--Curse you genetics!--to wipe the tears from the angelic Boogie's face, "You shouldn't cry for someone like me..."
Kris won't ever love me. Not like you. It's not settling. It's not playing.
"Jou...could you ever...take me back...?"
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Post by Jouhnin Takanami on Oct 21, 2010 18:19:38 GMT -5
It seemed that Corvus and Jouhnin had somehow traded places. The younger Corvus was cold, cruel and used Jouhnin then left him like a sack of potatoes. Now it seemed that Jouhnin was the cold and cruel one, becoming much like a real Boogie than the one he was before. Jouhnin hadn't always been a monster, not 11 years ago. But now he was starting to sit on the fence, like he was a Boogie but wasn't. Things always got screwed up when Corvus was involved.
Corvus was a screw-up. But he was Jouhnin's screw-up.
Jouhnin was about to break into another fit of tears when he felt Corvus grab onto his kimono and kiss him a bit more forcefully and then he expected. Jouhnin's silver eyes widened like saucers and his whole body tensed up. But it didn't take long for Jouhnin to give in and return the kiss. It was a long moment, it felt like it lasted years, it kinda made Jouhnin want to cry again. He felt Corvus pull away and he wanted to grab Corvus and make him continue but he didn't, he was too shocked to do so.
Corvus's face broke Jou's heart in two. He had never seen such a smile on Corvus's face. Sure smiles were often, but this one was not. Jouhnin could not help but blush bashfully and smile just a small bit. He heard the words but didn't quite hear them, He felt Corvus wipe the tears from his cold face and sighed softly, he turned his head, probably to hide the deep blush that lingered on his pale features.
"Jou...could you ever...take me back...?"
The giant Boogie looked down at Corvus with a face that was an obvious mix of curiosity and confusion. He then let the corners of his mouth turn just a touch. He had an older look to him, but also a youthful look as well. Like the looks he had 11 years ago, he had the childish softness about him. Jouhnin brushed Corvus's hair out of his face, letting his ice cold hand linger on the younger boogies face. " Corvus... When it comes to me and my heart...." he paused and let out a soft chuckle,
" You never left..."
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Post by Corvus "Raven" Hunter on Oct 23, 2010 18:47:59 GMT -5
Corvus Hunter had, again, never been one to blush, but hearing the words as they fell from Jouhnin's mouth made the younger Boogie turn into a cherry all over again. Was this really happening? Could Jouhnin be really saying 'yes'? After eleven years of thinking he was hated and loathed by the man he'd mistreated so horribly, maybe they could make this work? Straighten (or gay-en) things out and try again?
He wanted it. And what Jouhnin did too, by the sound of things.
"Do you mean that?" Corvus mumbled, looking up with bright red eyes and a slightly-surprised expression.
Without even waiting for an answer, his arms snapped around Jou's waist again and hugged him tight. No influence of autophobia, no fear of abandonment...he just wanted to make sure he wasn't dreaming right now. "Jouhnin-kun..." the demon-eyed angel hugged even tighter against the giant, "Take me back. I don't care if you're moody or tall or if you're a..." Cor actually made a face at the word, "...seme. I just...want you back..."
More than anything.
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Post by Jouhnin Takanami on Oct 23, 2010 20:43:15 GMT -5
Jouhnin wasn't one to blush anymore either. He used to, quite often in fact. But now that he realized what he had said, talking about his heart and all that nonsense he felt like a fool. Could he really be one of the oldest and most respected Boogies in Wonderland if he got all flustered so easily? His wealth would have no change if he were to take Corvus back, but would he still be okay? Could he still trust the boogie that at one time was the object of his deepest hatred? But Corvus had also been the object of his deepest affections as well.
Can your heart know more then the logic of your brain? Before he could take back his answer he felt Corvus wrap himself around his waist. The taller man sighed deeply, Can I really believe that he won't run off for Kris again...? he thought to himself. He was worried but... Isn't this what he had always wanted? Wasn't Corvus one of the few things he actually cared for so deeply? Yes and yes, Corvus was, and always would be. He heard his name again and looked down, his hair falling softly over his shoulders.
He smiled softly, just a touch. He was moody and tall, which seemed to bother Crovus a bit. But the last bit actually made him laugh. That soft laugh that really could only come from a pompous rich gay man. The taller boogie leaned down and kissed Corvus's head softly, " As far as I remember, you were once the Seme" he said through a soft chuckle. But with the rest of Corvus's words he sighed again. He then took Cor's hands from around his waist and removed them. He then let his height difference go down by a good amount. He got onto his knees like a father would to their small child. He smiled softly and brushed Corvus's black hair out of his face.
A content look seemed to arise on Jouhnin's feminine face, a smile curled his lips and he leaned in.... And kissed Corvus on the forehead. A loving gesture, that came with a fox-like grin. " Corvus... Despite what you may have thought... I didn't really want you sent away. And by the time you were gone I realized how much I regretted making you go. I felt even worse than before, knowing that I couldn't even love you from a distance..."
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